‘Why?’ I was scared, confused. I got only one response: ‘Through this I will bring joy.’: Gripping photos capture mom’s poignant first moments with rainbow baby after tubal pregnancy loss

“Our story is truly a BEAUTIFUL one of heartbreak, hope and healing.

My husband and I had been trying to conceive our third child, and in December of 2015, we finally saw those magical two pink lines. We were both so excited!

A week or so went by and I started to experience severe pain. I knew something was wrong. I saw my doctor and he confirmed I was experiencing a tubal pregnancy.

Mom’s ‘double rainbow’ baby honored in stunning photo as her ‘miracle’

Despite staying under close medical supervision my tube ended up rupturing and I was rushed into emergency surgery where they performed a tubal litigation on my right side. I was heartbroken, and my husband was terrified at the thought he had almost lost his wife and mother to his children.

Through tear filled eyes I cried out to God asking, ‘Why?’ I was scared and confused. I got only one response: ‘Through this I will bring joy.’

We were able to conceive again and although I was very excited, I was also very nervous. I held tightly to God’s promise.

This experience brought my husband and I closer to each other and to God. I gained an amazing appreciation [of the] delicacy of both pregnancy and my own life.

One year after experiencing our loss, there I was, holding the most precious gift of all, our fearfully and wonderfully made rainbow baby, Audrey Joy.

In that moment I felt God had fulfilled his promise to bring joy, and healing out of heartbreak.

Little did I know at the time how Audrey Joy’s birth story would travel the world bringing hope and healing to millions. It’s such a honor to have her be such an AMAZING blessing not only to our family, but also to mom’s who have rainbow babies or are currently waiting on the Lord to answer their prayers.”

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