“Most of life happens within the gray – the space between black and white. It might mean I am too busy right now. It might mean I am struggling. It might mean I need to take a break from peopling. So, I’ll keep on not keeping score, and I’ll keep hoping you do the same for me.”
“You anchored to me, strong and steady, as my ship sailed from each harbor, faithfully into each wild and lengthy storm. And with every torrential downpour, you stay.”
“I was in endless survival mode, in bed for months, and none of my doctors believed me. Every well-crafted piece that compiled my life broke apart. I realized that no matter how hard I tried, there was no way back into my old life. I needed to find a new purpose, a new definition of who I was and what I wanted in life. And that’s when something shifted inside me.”
“All I knew was I was scared of ‘love.’ I didn’t want it. In fact, I wanted to run from it like it was the plague. I wish I could go back and hold myself like I held my siblings. I wish I could tell little Jas that real love was coming. An angel on earth. The most adorable, bi-racial boy with the biggest dimples and largest afro I had ever seen.”
“I won’t be taking these things with me anymore, and I hope you’ll do the same.”
“The medical examiner handed me the two most symbolic pieces left of his life—his wedding band and St. Christopher’s Medal around his neck, marred and tangled in char and plastic.”
“I want our family to be able to communicate without any barriers.”
“He said take my bin out. If he had said put my bin out, it would have been just a normal day in Mackay.”
“We lost all passion and attraction towards each other. The text he sent, ‘I think I messed up again,’ was a turning point for us. One where we no longer settle.”
“Until one day I realized, ‘Like hell I did nothing!’ I am raising two AMAZING human beings. I kept this house together from the moment we bought it. And I looked death in the face and said, ‘Not today. Maybe someday, but NOT TODAY.'”
