Sonia Beltz is a former digital editor for Love What Matters based near Dayton, Ohio. She holds a bachelor’s degree in English and Creative Writing from the University of Iowa. In her free time, you can find her writing, reading, or researching random historical facts online. Follow her on Instagram at @skatbel.
“My whole body went numb, and I struggled to remain conscious. Our little girl was in distress.“
“A year ago, I was in a camper at the beach with a gun in my mouth. I would’ve missed so many opportunities to be happy.”
“Oh, my God. I could’ve died!’ I didn’t recognize my mental breakdown until I nearly stepped in front of a speeding bus.”
“We need to be kinder to each other, less judgmental, more compassionate. As mothers, as parents, and as people.”
“I was unhinged. I used to imagine watching my children from heaven, making sure they were safe. I would visit the doctor, pleading for someone to help me. I didn’t know what was wrong with me.”
“‘This is a night I will remember for the rest of my life.’ We didn’t know each other well enough to get married, but we felt we could parent together.”
“5 bags!!! Why??? Because he was tired, thirsty, hungry, wanted to go on the swing, wanted to go back in the water…Those 5 bags display the mind of a mother.”
“The second Jackson was put on my chest, it all became real. I didn’t have that instant bond a lot of women talk about. I dreaded the time I would be by myself with the boys. Every day is a struggle, but I can’t imagine my life without them.”
“I began to speed toward the rail. Right before I hit it, I heard a sniffle. ‘This is not how it ends.’ I knew I had a purpose to live for.”
“I would have masked my grief with make-up and pretty clothes, attended all the events, and popped dangerous amounts of Xanax. But with Covid, there was nowhere to go, no mask to hide under, no excuse to avoid my grief.”
