Amanda Doulos is a digital editor for Love What Matters based in New York City. She will graduate from Binghamton University with a Bachelor of English Literature and Spanish in Spring 2023. She loves staying involved as vice president of the mock trial team and secretary of Spanish Honor Society. In her free time, she loves reading, traveling, and spending time with friends.
“I’d drive my car to the river and sit there, thinking about how long it would take to break through the ice. I just wanted to leave this world. I never shared this with anyone.”
“I had severe pain on my right side that wouldn’t go away. I was taken to the ICU, where the fight of my life began. I was hospitalized for over 40 days while they tried to save me.”
“I’ll never forget having my whole life ahead of me one day and the next, being told, ‘There’s no cure. Your life expectancy is 5-10 years.’ I was scared and alone.”
“How could the president of a mental health awareness club struggle with her own mental health? I finally ran out of options.”
“It took me a long time to learn to love myself, but I finally know how.”
“I began to notice similarities between my son’s struggles and my own. Things that triggered him also triggered me. I had meltdowns just like he has meltdowns. I felt SEEN for the first time.”
“The doctor clearly stated, ‘Though I am proud of you, I feel this is a huge mistake.’ I didn’t care. I was brave, different, one of a kind.”
“My hand had been squeezed so tightly for so long they were blue. The tips of my fingers on both hands turned white. I knew it was bad.”
“I’m going to continue to fight loneliness as long as I live. While we may never know each other, I wanted you to know.”
“I felt an already enlarged lymph node get larger while we learned to navigate the newborn phase in the midst of biweekly chemotherapy treatments.”
